Savleen kaur

I choose the life which just made me to quit my existence
I just want to distance my self from everyone
Feeling like I’m Demon in myself in this little earth
Everyone would have heard the quote about “Karma hits you back”
I think it has really hit me hard, like very hard
If you are reading this I just want to apologize for my behavior with you
and i just pray for you to get the best life ahead

I would have always played a negative role in your life
i hope you might forgive me someday
but you were the best person i have ever met
i want our friendship to still remaining the same
bye

The blurred part
it all started when i did not hear anyone and did what i wanted
making everyone fall in the bad situation
making everyone suffer in the reality and due to my overthinking
i am now living an illusion life
where i just don’t know what’s going, why it is going
when it is going to end
the phase i m learning or or just passing
or i might pass i don’t know
i have surrender everything to god
goodbye

though not outstanding or perfect, but, life is satisfactory
the life I’m now living is happy
earing in money should not be the goal
earning in love should be the one
Your honor, truth & respect is needed
someone who knows that you won’t lie
and trust you in any situation is needed
fear of nothing is supposed to be the life
hanging on with the same pain,
won’t let to be alive.
good enough to take your decisions
good enough to get of rough
let people think what they think

let them don’t know what pain you took
it’s you who are living the reality
it’s you who saw it coming far away.
thank you god,
i did took a step
now or tomorrow, it was supposed to end
heart knows what it is supposed to know
the right has to be the one…..

Humans are in the ego of their own
trying to burn themselves
knowing no limits for themselves
giving pain to others not knowing the consequences
not even knowing what is going on in some other people’s lives
not knowing the background
trying to torcher other people with their words
noooo it’s not the strawberry world for all
hardly, I find anyone humble towards anyone.

If you see the Pain of one person
why not another if someone has taken aback
and made some crucial decisions in their life
no, it’s not the shit that someone is going into
you need to consider everything.

picking some of the life decisions is good
but what if the other is not feeling good about it
coz they were the ones who created a different story in their mind
is not my problem
you need to consider this
using someone means, you are dumb, you used me like a tool
like seriously getting allegations like this
so easy to say for you just because you created a together scenario in the mind
which I’m not able to fulfill
which I have already worn would not happen
then why it is I who have cleared things way before is someone
who gets the blame why?

it’s giving me mental pressure of
I have done something way too wrong
even if it is not my fault
seems like I have no right to be here
no right of me to even exist here

yes i did tell you everything
what’s happening & what not
because you were not that person
who you are now
that’s why maybe my behavior changed
and yes it did
coz u changed dammm

Sometimes i felt that i am dumb
coz u helped me and at the same time
make me realise that wait ” you would not understand this “
lemme explain
why demotivating before even a person trying

do this do that, like the hell
why this that
why do you want to know or stick towards my matter
sometimes things are un bearable
sometimes when i wanted to do the things by my self
but no i cant because you take time to understand things dear
no dear you self doubt yourself
and just lemme know how is it created
its because of you

I’m in fear of every moment
every night i sleep just praying one thing that i don’t want to wake up
just not

you have just made me feel like i have just done something very wrong
but no it was you who took it wrong sense and not meeeeeeeeeee

no knowing no wanted to know why someone has taken some tough decision
just want to keep their words, oh no it’s me who is in pain
if someone has taken the same wise decision
they are having some feelings inside tough
but a request don’t try to catch then
no dear never ever
I now just feel I would have never
been born
and never ever have met you
and so this mess would have never created
ever in my life
no one would ever understand the essence

of life from the other’s point of view

I hate you /

you are making me feel that I have given you the pain

don’t dare to do that

I made things clear

pls

don’t make me a person who I m not

I always know deep down in my heart that I have not done something bad to anyone
I considered you have helped and assisted me where needed
because maybe alone and god has sent you to do this
because they know the person’s capability & wanted me to know the world
don’t want to mess up my life like this
I have lost the mind
I want to live again
where there is no one like you
I want to be alone
with the god
bye.

एक वादा करना था
इस जन्म मै न सही
पर अगिले जन्म मै
मै किसी का मन नहीं दुखाऊँगी
क्योकि न जाने इस जनम मै मैंने किसी का शयद बहोत दर्द दिया है
सोचा न था मै इतनी बुरी हो सकती हु
सोचा न रहा कभी खुद को शीशे मै देखना से नफरत होगी
इस जनम शायद थोड़ा सा और समझदार हो जाती
तो शयद किसी को थोड़ा कम दुःख पहोचती
मुझे माफ़ करदो, बस माफ़ करो
मेरे मै किसी को भी दुखी देखने की हिमत नहीं है
अगर वह मेरी वजह से हो तो
अनजाने मै इंसान बस दूसरे इंसान को कुछ और समाज बैठ ता है
और बस बैठ ही जाता है
यह गलती कभी दोबारा न हो
ज़िन्दगी का कुछ समाज नहीं आती
कैसे यर इतना दुःख मैंने पहोचाया होगा न

yes they would leave once they were done with their work
yet it’s good because you also want them to leave
maybe now is the time that you will grow
have your own thoughts, have your own recognition
you would be holding power for you

Hoping to see them. if they want
don’t know maybe just moving our from the city, or country very far away
where there is the place for an average brains
where there is acceptance
where there is love, life, peace, calmness
literally no crying at all, not even a single tear.
take me to that place forever and ever
even if go to that place in my dream, I want that dream to never be over
even if I’m not waking up after that forever
I don’t mind I just now want that peace
calmness
love
affection………….

Achieving the desire, needed hard work and consistency
yes not enough smarter to tackle by the luck
that’s why its up hill battle that’s so tough

there was defamation, and hatred all around
finding my way was hitting my head on the ground
still thinking your IQ is low and you’re too slow
baby just wanna say you
I’m not like you.

they say am I dumb or pretending to be one
yes, you got the image i just showed you

Sometimes it just feels like hitting something at the different level
like being crazy, without even giving the shit to what others have to say.
learning new languages or maybe posting your favorite thing on Instagram or maybe just locked up in the room, reading the book or singing and writing your own song
of feel like not talking to anyone and just be your self, or maybe listening to the songs on the full volume and just enjoy (eating maggie in rains also chai (tea) )
and MAYBE JUST COMING HERE AND WRITING A POST

AND SAY GOODBYE!